Content

I feel like I’m just some big disappointment, or something.

Like I’m not living up to what some people want me to be, or expect of me.

And it’s frustrating, because I like who I am.. for the first time, I truly do.

I have come a long way, but I know that I’ve got a long way to go yet. I know I’m not perfect, and I’m never going to be, and I know that my beliefs aren’t going to be the same as someone else’s. And I know I’m going to make some bad choices in my life – it’s a given.

So right now I’m not the strongest in my faith, and maybe I should be bothered by it more than I am. But I just can’t be bothered an insane amount.. because before, the way I used to live, I was truly miserable, and now, I’ve found a place where I’m actually not miserable, a place where I am content, and I feel like this is where I’m supposed to be.. but that’s hard to explain to anyone besides myself.

I guess I’ll just have to go sit and have a talk with God.. He’ll tell me what to do.